Zoinks and Jinkies ad infinitum

What a crazy couple of weeks. It was the best of times. It was the worst of times. And it all ended with a vicious circle.

It's good to warm my bones beside the monitor.

sorry for the lame post but I'm slowly slipping into the seventh circle of hell again. School drudgery has kicked in full gear and with the fact that I only had one book up until today, my readings are piling into a giant mass that will surely tumble over and crush me (most likely onto my keys). I'm stressed and worried and fragile the last few days. I never enjoy the transition and for some reason, its realy kicking in full gear. I've been extremely irritable the last few days and very self-concious about my appearance and the image I am projecting to the world.

It may be partly due to the smaller class sizes this year and how you look around and start recognizing those key people around you. It's almost like high school again where 30 of us sit together all day with the same classes and interests, except this time I only know one person. I'm the weird foreign new kid that doesn't know the rules of the playground or even worse, and likely as true, I'm the kid that is a family member of a teacher. automatic disavowal. Only a small group of friends surrounds them, possibly of compassion, or friendship, or perhaps a Judas hoping for that shining A.

I haven't been able to tell if maybe my withdrawal from the world has been the onslaught of stress, or maybe it's the withdrawal kicking in. As I am now expected to remember facts and comprehend complex critical papers, I have begun to reduced in my kicking the gong around. (that one's just for Cab.) I feel ineffectual to most of my close friends and family (a best friend from school just appeared on MSN as I type, and I show no desire whatsoever to chat).

My funk of today may just be circumstantial. I did have to sit in a classroom for 6 hours straight yesterday and play the game of avoiding participation which I have now perfected to an alarming level of skill. It may also be that tonight Ben and I finished our great month long escapade of Dane Cook's Tourgasm where we met every Thursday to share our great appreciation for the man. It's over and I'm already missing the notion of a weekly cinematic adventure. My funk could also be attributed to the clipshow of Dane in episode 8 where I pretty much watched videos of how he is extremely successful due to all of the hard work, perseverence and belief that he has maintained throughout his life. This coming the day after I watched "Dane Cook's Vicious Circle" HBO special where it was one man entertaining 18,000 fans WWF style in a huge arena. Got the ol' "where am I going with my life, what am I doing to improve my self, am I really doing what I was meant to be doing or what I could be happiest doing?" It's not a fun game, especially when you keep comparing yourself to Dane FUCKIN Cook.

As it is ten to three I really must go. I have not done the readings or the practices for my philosophy tutorial tomorrow and the dark side has almost eclipsed. I just want to listen to dark side and be taken away to that place my mind used to roam back in high school where everything made sense, the future meant hope and sleep was merely a "This great journey to be continued...." Now it's "what's next?"

I have a lot of work due in the next week so expect a rant on how I am more at peace and calm within Grand Theft Auto than the real world (matrix parallels abound), and I would hopefully like to begin one of my pet projects. Starting soon, I am going to be presenting an ongoing series of rants on movie etiquette. Whether it be home viewing, public viewing, sophisticated films or "the shaggy dog."


And the sun is eclipsed by the moon. . . . . . . . . . . .

Fna! Hablabulah! i love that girl.

ME + BEX = GREAT.

ME + BEX = ROGER WATERS TICKETS.

ME + ROGER WATERS = CALM, SURREAL, AWARE, HAPPY, INTROSPECTIVE, SUPER HAPPY!!!!

Someday I'll score some kind of secret Ani backstage pass and all will be equal but until then, I am in debt.....moreso.

I am so ready

Updates - Phantom's Blog WITH LIME!!!

So as you can see, I've done a little reworking of the site. I got tired of seeing all those goddamn broken picture links so I've just thrown up images from the PC. Bless this new uploading feature of Blogger. There are new photos, the mindless lists on the right have been updated, Steve has dropped only due to broken links (we still love the McQueen) and I've now added a link to my Flixster page. I only added the link since I'm going to be making a list of all the movies I watch this year in school. So far it's at 4 but will hopefully grow to infinite +1. I started out by just giving my opinions through the star system but recently have begun fleshing out a little. Give it some time and maybe I'll be writing real reviews.......or not. This is the first week of school anyway.

You might notice a Linklater trend going on. That's because I'm starting to worship the man after watching Dazed numerous times this summer, being blown away by A Scanner Darkly and diving right back into Waking Life after it was screened in my animation class. Also, I recently found out he did The Newton Boys which I saw with my dad in the theatre. Lately it seems that everytime I hear about another movie he did, it turns out I either already own it or have seen it in theatres. Before Sunrise was the big shocker. It never clicked in my head, the same with School of Rock. I read the name at the end of the movie but never got on the trolley. Well by gum, I am the Slim Pickens of trolley-ridin now. I hope you enjoyed that sentence as much as I did.

Testing

A photo I grabbed while peeing behind someones house up in one of the random dead zones of Ontario. The focus was not on but i think it gives it a Monet like look.



My secret, sea-glass filled beach during the summer. Also the day I became one of those weird guys who bikes without a shirt on while listening to a walkman.

Super Perfundo On This Eve Of Your Day

Hello all.

First point of business, I will hopefully have many sweet photos to post soon. I have a new phone that is moreso a camera that makes static-y calls so beware. I'm now officially back in school for my 3rd year. I'm taking:
Philosophy
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Knowledge and Reality
Persons, Minds and Bodies

Film
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Aspects of a National Cinema: New Zealand
Canadian Cinema
Contemporary World Cinema
ORIGINS OF ANIMATION (1900-1950) - I only realized a few days ago that I have now fulfilled one lifelong passion of studying cartoons for my education after watching that fateful simpson's episode "Little Girl In The Big Ten" and thought it would never happen.

Others
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Stars and Galaxies - astronomy
Science Fiction and Fantasy - English

I have also signed up for Archery (finally!) and I'm taking an Ashtanga Yoga class. I hope it's worth it and I can hold my own. On the side I have two ideas for papers or short books and a few ideas for films and art film presentations. It's building up to be an ambitious year but as this is my third year or (super grade 11) it's about that time where I start to gel with the whole system making me a number thing.